"I am special
I am strong
I am the best."
"I have just fought a fierce battle
Even way before I was able to come into being
I swam and struggled
Over millions of my siblings."
"I am certainly special
Without a doubt."
"I grew ever so slowly
ever so carefully
inch by inch
from a nothing
into a something."
"I loved my home
My warm and cosy water bag
I loved swaying and rocking in it."
"My sense of hearing was so good
That I could hear voices
from a land far far away
I would often hear
A gentle loving voice singing to me"
Woman (singing): My sweet darling angel..."
Sometimes a louder, rougher but still loving voice"
Man: Hi... Ya! Champ
Woman: Honey! There's a high possibility that it could be a girl, you know?
Man: Oh!!... Errr!... My princess then?... my beautiful precious princess."
It didn't bother me none
All this talk about:
Champ or Princess
Boy or Girl
He or She."
"It was so irrelevant
compared to the bigger issues
that I had to undergo."
I was developing.
My legs and hands
My head and torso
My fingers and toes."
"I was growing gradually
And it was up to me
To ensure genetically
That I grew up strong and healthy."
"I had my likes and dislikes...
I loooooved Soto Ayam
but I loathed the Ayam"
Woman (Exasperated voice):I have never liked soto ayam or anything soupy and now I love it, but minus the chicken? And chicken's supposed to be my favourite. Go Figure!
"I am strong
I am powerful
I am special"
"But it was not always that bad
our relationship that is;
We had a whole lot of good times too;
I loved it when she danced
and rubbed her tummy.
At times I could even feel her soul connecting to mine."
"Then one day..."
Woman: AAArghh! My water bag broke!
Man: Oh! Oh! Are you sure?
Woman: Pray tell what is this puddle on the carpet then?
Man (Trying very hard to be calm, but is actually panicking): Oh...Ok! Keep Calm. My job is to get you there. I packed your bag and put it away.. but where?
Woman (Patiently): Upstairs in our closet.
Man: Good! Good ! And the car? Do keep calm Honey. The keys... the keys. I can't find the car keys?
Woman (Getting annoyed): I will try to be calm.... with YOU HONEY. The car's in the porch and the keys- front left side pocket of the pants you are currently wearing.
"Well, as they say,
All good things must come to an end
and so it did for me
The water bag broke
Way beyond any mending or repairs."
"And so ...
I had no way out
And just when I thought that this is
The end of Brilliant Me...."
"Ouch! Suddenly right out of nowhere
This dazzling light
Burns and sears through my closed eyes.
And the sounds?
They are deafening."
Snip! Snip! (Sound of the umbilical cord being snipped)
(Panting for breath)
Why did you snip off my cord?
It's my lifeline you savage murderers.
Stop harrassing me... leave me alone!"
"Ohhhhh! I give up.
There's only me...1
Against all of you
White coated people.
Do whatever that pleases you!"
They weigh me, wipe me, cuddle me
Their joyful voices drumming into my
Once peaceful, calm life."
"Ooooo! Now, that's much better
I am swaddled
into a warm woolly blanket.
I love it,
It reminds me of home."
"Then, a man in a white gown lifts me up
Strangely, I feel safe and sound in this strong man's arms
His voice is filled with pure joy."
Man: My princess.. you are both my champ and my princess. Honey! She's beautiful! She looks just like you.
"Then I hear this voice..."
Woman (Singing): My sweet darling angel
I love you my honey
You are my little angel
My little baby bunny
And it hits me....like a sledgehammer
The champ-princess combo is my father
My very own Dad
And this angel-bunny mixture is my mother
My Mom..... Wow!"
"I feel safe
I feel secured
Suddenly this place
Doesn't seem so terrifying
And dangerous anymore."
"I am relieved... but so tired
I nestle into my mother's warm body
I have nothing to fear... so tired...
I can let down my guard now
I feel the love... so, so tired..
Happy voices engulf me with love."
"I welcome my new home wholeheartedly
I welcome love
I welcome slllllleeeeeeep."
Written By: Willow Beech